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  The Lesson

  Based on a True Story

  Copyright © 2013 Virginia Hull Welch

  ISBN - 978-0-9888739-0-2

  E-Book ISBN - 978-0-9888739-1-9

  The Lesson

  Copyright 2013 by Virginia Hull Welch. All rights reserved. This book may not be used or reproduced in any form whatsoever, in whole or in part, without written permission of the author, except for brief quotations embedded in critical articles and reviews. For information contact Virginia Hull Welch, [email protected].

  Published by Virginia Hull Welch, 2013 www.ginnywelch.com

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  Other books by Virginia Hull Welch:

  Crazy Woman Creek

  Inspirational Historical Romance

  What to Do When the Blessings Stop

  Lessons from Haggai (2013)

  The Hiss from Hell Only Women Hear

  Is It Truth or Is It Tradition? (2013)

  To Ken, the love of my life

  And

  To my children and their children

  throughout the ages,

  that you may know that God is faithful

  Author's Note

  The Lesson is based on true events touched lightly with the brush of artistic license to move the story forward. To protect privacy of certain individuals I have changed their names, ages, physical descriptions, vocations, and other details; therefore any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. In some instances I have changed locations where events took place. Of course I do not remember word-for-word conversations after so many years, but I have strived in good conscience to deliver dialogue in the spirit of the conversations that live in my memory.

  Prologue

  During spring break of my college sophomore year I had to make a painful decision, one more life-changing than any I had ever made or would make again. I remember the struggle of that week clearly. While my fellow Santa Clara University co-eds were showing off their shapely tans on West Coast beaches under an endless California sun (the pink bikini or the yellow?), I was agonizing over what I was about to lose: marriage, career, my entire future. Dreams were dashed, hearts were broken, faith was tested.

  Mine came close to failing.

  My story doesn’t start out so melodramatic. It was at a fall freshman dance in 1973 that I met him. Girl meets boy, they fall in love, they get married—it happens all the time on college campuses in America. Except this time we didn’t get married and there was no happily ever after. And it was all because of the events chronicled here, ten memorable days in particular, that the ill-fated lovers who walk these pages will never meet again. Mine is a sad story, but a true one.

  He wasn’t supposed to be at the freshman dance. He was a twenty-five-year-old, third-year law student who had come only to check out the new crop of pretty eighteen-year-olds at the end of an exciting and busy freshman orientation week. The dance was the last orientation event, the grand finale that would wind up seven frantic days of dinners, meetings, speakers, and the like. Tonight, set to music from an overly loud rock band, there would be the surging thrum of hundreds of excited young people, delirious at being away from home for the first time, complete with breathless co-eds dressed in skinny tops and jeans, and a lot of tall, lean types holding up the dance hall walls, many of whom, like him, looked suspiciously like upperclassmen.

  Outside in the open quad adjacent to Swig Hall, the dormitory set aside exclusively for freshmen, ever larger groups of streakers had been entertaining new students nightly, a spillover of orientation week insanity. Freshmen of both genders hung dangerously out the windows of Swig Hall’s eleven stories to get a better look at the bevies of naked Broncos, also of both genders, who, pumped by the least excuse and emboldened by too many beers, had, en masse, shunned their clothes to tear through the quad waving illegible flags while yelling unintelligible political phrases of the day, or whatever seems appropriate to yell when you are naked, running with fifty strangers through a public venue, and half lit. You never saw them start and you never saw them finish their mad dash against the establishment. You just saw the derrieres and the flags. Almost forty years later, that’s what I remember: the naked derrieres and the flags, not to mention the naked terror of hanging out my sixth floor window, peering dizzyingly at the hard, hard cement sidewalk straight, straight down.

  But of that night in particular I remember with the acid-sweet clarity of first love the young man, leaning wistfully against the wall at the freshman orientation dance. He was handsome in an everyman sort of way: slender, almost six feet tall, coal-black hair, clean shaven, conservatively dressed, even a little preppy, likely the product of a private Jesuit high school. He stood alone, which is why I felt comfortable enough to ask him to dance. No wingman would be witness, poised to dissect my looks or words by evening’s end. If I flubbed my lines or was humiliated by rejection, my secret would be truly secret and safe, observed by one.

  So I asked him to dance and he said yes. And we danced. We danced some more, and then we talked. Till after midnight we talked of anything and everything: of family, of school, of travel, of our individual dreams. As he walked me to my door on the sixth floor of Swig Hall, he kissed me. When he did, I knew this was the one. And I knew he knew it too.

  Later I learned from his roommate Rolando that Michael had “floated” through his apartment door after leaving me for the night. He had, he gushed to Rolando, met the most “beautiful girl in the world.” Imagine: ordinary me, in my ankle length, plum colored halter dress. I had danced my way into a dream.

  And so that night began the romance that everyone thought would never end, the law student and the freshman English major. With great pride I brought him home to meet my parents, whose only requirements in a husband for their daughter was that he be male, Catholic, and employed. Michael more than fulfilled their requirements: I had snagged an up-and-coming lawyer. He was also witty, well read, not a military man, which pleased my mother, and was amenable to sharing a glass of wine with my father from time to time, which gave him high marks for sociability. It didn’t hurt, either, that he came from a long line of lawyers.

  The expected engagement dinner soon followed, with toasts and smiles all around, and then the ring, a suitably large stone to impress the relatives. Mom was happy, Dad was happy. Everyone was happy. I, the first in the family to attend college—a prestigious, private Jesuit university at that—was planning to attend law school after graduation, and once I passed the bar and married Michael, we would be Jeffers & Jacobs, Attorneys at Law, or Jacobs & Jeffers, depending on whom you asked, or so the joke went. Everyone would be even happier. It was a beautiful dream.

  Now it was spring break. Michael was well established in his first law office in Berkeley, about an hour’s drive from the university. I was finishing my sophomore year, still studying English, which I thought to be a sensible foundation for someone who would eventually write brilliant legal arguments. We had been dating for eighteen months and now, this very month, right after a late-March Easter, we had become engaged. Everything was going to plan.

  It is a singular truth that life does not always follow your plan.

  Within days of my saying yes it was all over. On April 29 Michael took back the ring, and my magnificent dream of a perfect life—perfect man, perfect marriage, perfect career—was buried forever. I never spoke to Michael again.

  But where one story ends another begins. Or, it can be said, the beginning and the ending are all one story. You may wonder why I would sit down and write my story considering that it is so painful. It’s been four decades, and the world does not need another tragedy. But the story that follows this sad one must be told, partly b
ecause you’ve heard only the first half, the sad half. The second half, I assure you, has a happy ending. But even a happy ending is not reason enough to share my story. I record these events now, after nearly forty years of silence, because now I understand their lesson.

  Gina Jacobs

  Chapter One

  Fall 1975, the Apartment, Lincoln Street,

  Santa Clara

  “You followed me home.”

  Gina stared in disbelief at steel-gray eyes that peered over her apartment door security chain. She may have been in shock over the stranger standing on the other side of her door, but she was clear minded enough to keep the chain in place and herself arm’s length, just in case. After all, she’d met him only an hour ago.

  “Kevin, what are you doing here?” she said, straining to keep her voice to a whisper. “It’s ten thirty!”

  “I’m with the FBI. Your apartment is under surveillance.” Kevin smiled fetchingly as he said this, but he made the mistake of moving his face closer to the jamb.

  Gina reflexively grabbed the handle to slam it shut but stopped short of making a sandwich of his nose. She wouldn’t be taken in by a jokester, no matter how charming, but likewise she didn’t want to do anything violent to draw attention. Blood was so unladylike. “I can’t believe you followed me home.”

  “Only in the interest of national security.” That smile again.

  “You can’t just show up here this late at night.”

  “Too late for that debate. I’m already here. Can I come in for a few minutes?”

  Gina hesitated. Their introduction had been brief, and he was a newcomer, not one of the regulars at the weekly Bible study. All she knew of him was that he was twenty-two and a sailor stationed aboard a U.S. Navy ship somewhere at Mare Island, wherever that was. He was tall and handsome in a boyish sort of way, with flawless skin any girl would love to have, and he had lots of wavy brown hair. But he wore weird clothes: forest green polyester pants and a cream colored, too stretchy sweater that would have been rejected by a K-Mart clearance rack. Good looks aside, she hadn’t been impressed when Mrs. Menzies had introduced them. Now here he was, standing on her stoop. She was unprepared at this hour to see a pair of eyes, any pair of eyes but particularly his, looking down at her through the narrow gap created by the chain.

  “You can trust me, Gina. It’s all those other guys down at the campus that you have to worry about,” Kevin said as he jerked his head toward the university, seven blocks away.

  “I’m in a better position than you to make judgments about Santa Clara guys.” Her voice stretched above a whisper now, her tone taught with offense. How dare he make assumptions about young men he had not met, some of whom were her friends? Unpretentious he was not.

  “I live aboard ship with more than three hundred guys. I’m the expert on guy behavior, not you.” He said this with matter-of-fact sobriety, as if she was the one acting unreasonable at this hour of the night.

  Gina looked at him skeptically. “And that’s supposed to persuade me to open the door?”

  “What I mean is,” he said, his tone abruptly turning serious, “I know what you’re thinking, and it’s not like that. I just want to talk to you, that’s all.”

  Truthfully she was more stunned at his sudden appearance at her door than nervous about any real threat to her safety. He was so ordinary looking, so artless, not subtle enough to be dangerous. He seemed genuinely sweet and wouldn’t scare anyone, though Gina could think of a few New York fashion designers who would rather eat their weight in worms than see their names on tags inside those polyester pants. And Mrs. Menzies had introduced them, so it must be alright—it wasn’t like he had followed her home from a bar. The only lingering fear she felt was anguish in the back of her mind over what her mother would say if she knew that Gina had opened her door to someone she had only just met, at night yet. But she was too polite to tell him to go away and too stunned to think of a plausible excuse. And it appeared he was truly alone on the stoop and all was as he said—he just wanted to socialize. Suddenly she heard herself say,

  “Okay, but only for a few minutes. I have class in the morning.”

  With an I can’t-believe-what-I’m-doing rising in the back of her mind and her heart pounding fast, Gina pulled the chain and opened the door. Kevin stepped inside and she closed the door behind him, being careful not to take her eyes off him. He stood behind the door with his ball cap in his hand. She saw him take a quick look around her oddly laid out, tiny apartment.

  “Nice place," he said.

  “Yes, I consulted every detail with a local interior decorator,” she said, “who I found at the San Jose Flea Market.” She shrugged. “But the price was right.”

  Kevin smiled at her little joke. Then he swept his eyes over her living space again, which he could see in its frugal, frumpy entirety from where he stood behind the door.

  “The floor plan is kind of helter-skelter,” she said, nodding toward the bathroom door that dominated, strangely, one wall of the living room. “I suppose at one time it must have been more logical. The original house was chopped up into three units.” Her words sounded lame. Certainly he hadn’t followed her home to hear about the architectural history of her shabby off-campus apartment. But it wasn’t like she’d had time to plan a speech. And she was so flustered at his unexpected appearance at this late hour that she didn’t know what else to do other than keep going. So, awkwardly, she did. “My parents own this building. It used to be a single-family house. I think it was built in the 1930s. A former owner remodeled it into three small apartments. There are two others behind mine.” Gina motioned toward the rear of the building.

  Kevin smiled. “It is cozy. How long have you lived here?”

  “Since the spring. When I was a freshman I lived on campus, in Swig Hall on the sixth floor, but it was noisy, and I changed a lot my sophomore year, so I left.”

  “I can imagine why they call it ‘swig.’ We have some hideaways on the ship that could be called swig rooms.” He lifted his hand to his lips and tilted his head back as if to swallow a big one.

  Gina smiled to be polite. He was, she sensed, trying to make her feel at ease, but she couldn’t bring herself to do the hospitable thing and invite him to step away from the door. So he was entertaining. Fine. She still felt safer near the only exit. Why had he come? What did he want? He was just another skinny swabbie in geeky street clothes, not her type at all. Surely she wasn’t his type either.

  “There was a lot of that in the dorms, and all the craziness that goes with it. That’s another reason I don’t miss the place, though I did make some good friends. But actually Swig Hall was named after a donor, Benjamin Swig.”

  Then, a lull, during which it occurred to her that she should do something or they’d spend the remainder of this bizarre evening blabbing foolishness behind her apartment door.

  “Are you hungry?” She wasn’t, but her mother always offered visitors something to eat, so that was the first thing she thought of to fill the awkward silence. Then she offered to take his jacket. That, at least, created a sense of normalcy about this weird, late night visit and occupied her hands. “All I have in the frig is eggs,” she explained, embarrassed. Eggs were fine with him.

  Gina stepped into the kitchen and flipped on the light. He followed her in, but the area was so small that his presence made it impossible for her to reach the refrigerator. It occurred to her suddenly and with breathtaking terror that she had allowed herself to get cornered with someone who could turn out to be the Bay Area's most notorious serial killer. What had she been thinking? Sharply she told herself to stop imagining the worst.

  "Kevin, can you get the eggs for me?"

  "Sure."

  He seemed delighted to be involved, and he hadn't yet pulled a gun or knife, so Gina decided it was safe to turn toward the stove and start cooking. She opened the ancient porcelain oven to retrieve her cast-iron frying pan, but not before glancing furtively in his direction. His c
lothes looked more garish under the bright lights of her kitchen than they had in the dusky lamplight of the Menzies’ living room. His polyester pants had a sheen. Odd: A guy who recognizes cheap chic in furniture but who is clueless about his clothes. Too bad. He seemed genuinely nice.

  She found the pan under a stack of cookware and, using a match, lit a burner. A promising scent of cooking gas filled the little kitchen. Then a whoosh and a boom as blue and yellow flames danced a circle around the burner.

  “Not even a Moon Pie.” He muttered this more to himself than to her as leaned into the cold emptiness to retrieve the lone box of eggs.

  “Excuse me?” She stopped what she was doing at the stove to hear him better.

  “I said, ‘You have no food.’ What do you eat?” He turned toward her and waved the half-empty egg carton above the refrigerator door.

  Gina shrugged and took the eggs. “Mostly I eat at the restaurant where I work. I only work about twenty hours a week, though, so after I pay my rent and a few expenses there isn’t much left over for groceries. I try to take as many meals as possible at work. Big Bick’s allows waitresses one free meal per shift. I take advantage of it as often as I can.”

  “If the Navy fed us like this there’d be mutiny. What do you do on days you don’t work?”

  “I manage.”

  “Do your parents help you?”

  “They would if I’d ask, but I don’t ask.”

  “Why not?”

  “It’s a long story,” she said. To keep it a short one, she turned back to the stove, and just in time to avoid a gooey mess in the sink, snatched an egg as it rolled down the ancient metal drain board. “Why don’t you sit down while I finish? I’ll just be a minute. You can sit there if you like,” she said, deftly steering him to the vinyl chair with the least amount of duct tape.